Early morning liturgy. Sweet.
Going to the doctor and realizing that I only hate the pregnant women there for a fraction of the time that I used to. Bittersweet.
Telling my friend of my soul's repair and success and having her worry that maybe I will hate her when she is pregnant again. Bitter. I didn't mean it that way. I told her because her eldest son is the first baby that I didn't hate when I realized I would never be a mom. That family has been so redemptive and healing for me. And they don't know it, and they can't understand. Some walk this soil and never know the blessing they are to others.
Getting the sweetest cuddle from her second son. If my soul hadn't healed, I would have missed that!! Sweet.
Meeting with a wonderful woman who is also an "adult of divorce." She reached out to me, took the time. Sweet.
Recounting all of the shocks and sadnesses the divorce has brought me. The confusion, the ironies. Bitter.
Knowing that the thing that she says is the worst part of it is the first thing I had encountered in "processing." Knowing I am not alone, that I can see myself in her eyes. Bittersweet.
Feeling I have gained a friend, knowing that she will pray for me. Sweet.
It's been a bittersweet day.